"Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm." -Winston Churchill
To those that have know me for a long time, you may remember I once lost all of this weight back in 1997 and 1998.
And then I gained all of it back, plus more. It was complete and total epic failure on an absolutely cosmic scale. It was humiliating and painful.
That failure haunted me for over a decade. But when I was going through the weight loss, I felt indestructible. I felt like I had cracked the code and was cured forever. I was wrong.
So, when it all came crashing down, I panicked. Instead of just calmly trying something else and giving myself a break, I overreacted. It took me less than a year to gain back what I worked so hard for almost 2 years to lose. I have never been more humbled in my life.
When I set out to lose this weight again, I decided to learn as much as I could from my failure 12 years ago. Why didn't what I did work? Looking back now, I can see all the dumb things I was doing that were unsustainable:
1.) I was starving myself. Losing weight became the focus, rather than focusing on maintaining a healthy weight. I got addicted to the number on the scale. With that in mind, I only weigh on the scale every 2 weeks. Not 1 day sooner.
2.) The foods I were eating were a drastic departure from a normal diet. I became a vegetarian and for a time, a vegan. Those are healthy diets and good choices for some people, but unsustainable for me. This time I have tried to eat only the way that I think I can maintain forever.
3.) I never cut myself a break. When I gained back 5 or 10 pounds, I should've just relaxed and slowly gotten back on the horse. Back then, if i didn't go to the gym 10 times a week, I felt like a failure. I had completely lost my mind and it's no wonder I burned out. So these days I try and take the long view. If I miss a workout, I just go the next day and move on.
It really is true when people say "slow and steady wins the race." Sometimes I lose 2 pounds every 2 weeks. Sometimes 8. I'm not trying to win an award, just get and stay healthy.
The important thing is never giving up.